Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Photo of the week....Blue

My favorite color would have to be blue..I wear alot of blue and have lots of blue in my home. Picking one color is very hard as I also like many others...Enjoy my blue cause I surely did...always...Judy


Well my day yesterday sure was spent in a wasteful way as I had to go to court to testify for a man fighting to see his children more. I say wasteful because I was there not really knowing either parents but because of my service to the community in scouting I was dragged in on it. I often wonder why people in divorces don't stop and think about the children and what is best for them..In this case I found myself really thinking that neither really needed the children. I also found myself mad at the people for not being considerate enough not to make me go thru this mess at this time. The outcome of this?? I have no idea, I was honest and that is all I can be..
It sure doesn't help the down feelings I have been having and surely is not the good thing I have been waiting for around the corner..
I hope today brings better things. It looks like another sunny day and I think close to 80 degrees today. As I woke up this morning I laid thinking about my life, about how I feel. I just really wonder if those I love realizes so many things, as how hard it is to do things sometimes, how depressed I really am, how there are days I don't think I can, the lonely feelings, the scared feelings when something hurts, and just how much I love them all. Each day is a challenge in many ways and I am thankful for all of it..The grass seems greener, the sky more blue, the sun has more warmth, and life is good and more thankful everyday I am here. I can't imagine being back where I was even a year ago. If this is what Cancer is about, the journey that it takes you on, I must be strong and I must be fighter. I think this is more than I realize. So the journey goes on and I will enjoy another beautiful day...always Judy

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Trying to be stronger..

Well I haven't posted anything for a while cause I got to thinking I'm just too depressed to keep expressing my self. But today I got on to read some blogs and found one of my B. friends is in a journey of her life with cancer..So here I am back and for those that don't want to hear my journey, that's OK, it's just OK.
My heart goes out for my B. friend and I pray for the best of a report tomorrow.
I have been very busy and not doing much. My friend Shell has got me into making my cards so I have found it does relax me alot..Am I good? I doubt it but the cards are made with a lot of love so hopefully those receiving one will feel it.
I have decided to go back to work if...anyone will hire me..I was turned downed by the local Library and now have applied for a job with the school..It was hard for me to make the decision to even apply and now I'm afraid it may be a big let down. I was truly scared to start something in my life as I do not want to have to give things up as I did before..But I need a purpose in my life, I need the feeling of need back in my life, so here I go I have started.
This was my third month so in 3 months I will be at my 2 year mark..The prize from the oncologist is...I get to go to 4 month check ups..I found this real disappointing as I thought it would be 6 months but also found it even more scarier that they find it necessary to still watch me this close...I find the doc very rude and not considerate at all and truly not encouraging. The appt was disappointing as your like a number they run in and back out. I was actually asking a question as she was running out the door..But any way another 3 down..with all good reports..
My daughter Missy and her family seem to be getting even more distant..The hurt from this sometimes is so over whelming. I just find family and friends all just to busy just too much going on in their life. I guess maybe with me nothing to do I see it all more clearly.
Today is filled with rain and is so gloomy making the day longer and harder to get thru. I have got where the TV doesn't even come on but find myself following the same schedule every day. I have been walking alot and it seems to clear my head some from the worry. Thank God for my little dog LuLu, she is always beside me..

Photo of the week...Feet

What better than a bunch of giggling teenage girls and a great granddaughter that play sports to display even a size 12...of course the youngest grandson got in on this too...lots of fun with this...

Picture of the Week...Change in Seasons..

I love the spring time when every thing begins to awaken..Ive done alot of walking and thinking, Im glad spring is here..

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

What Am I? The Answer is......

My what am I is a rock from down under..Yes 1200 feet under ground. It is called Pirite with calcite. Southeast Missouri is scattered with Iron Ore Mines, they are called the Buick Mine, Brushy Mine, #29 Mine, Fletcher Mine, Casteel Mine, and Sweetwater Mine. My husband and aproximately 50 others work at the Sweetwater Mine. They work daily getting over 3000 tons per day of copper, zinc, and lead. He has been at this job for 23 years..Mining is the best paying job for us trying to live in an rural area..These kind of rocks are for being collected..Anyone that would like a piece of one, let me know I would be glad to send it to ya...always Judy

Monday, March 8, 2010


Take a guess...will post later...always Judy

Momma's quilt...

I had to post a picture of the only quilt top I have made by my mom..This top is made of my childrens clothing as that is where all the buttons came from..
Lots of memories in the quilt top...always Judy

Monday, March 1, 2010

Photo of the Week...Buttons

Well I thought and thought what can I take a picture of buttons...and then I remembered, I had a container of buttons that was my moms. So with the help of my husband, we searched and found the button container. Looking thru the container brought back many memories of being at home and mom. I can remember her always taking the buttons off clothing and then cutting small squares to make quilt tops. So she made quilt tops out of the clothing of my children, myself and family members. All were sewn by hand carefully stitched. I did manage to get one of the tops that is just filled with clothing my children wore...Lots of memories...always Judy